Monday, November 17, 2014
My Ideology As An Indonesian Moslem (II)
Just now I knew that on Tuesday, Mount Merapi had been erupted again. I wonder, it is still relevant to talk about myself as the inhabitants of Yogyakarta affected?. I should feeling sorrow because I've been part of the people of Yogyakarta. Imagine, .. I had graduated from the university in this town, with bloody tears. Nine years I had lived in Yogya with all of my memories. Happy, disappointing, painful, dreadful and everything. Yogyakarta is my second city however.
But then I watched around me, victims of Merapi eruption should have got the help they deserves. As the most active volcanoes in the world, the government clearly observe eruptions of Mount Merapi and its excesses for the inhabitants surrounded. So, I think there is none to be hurt if I continue my story.
With fiery spirit, I entered the city of Yogyakarta in attending Universitas Gadjah Mada. The spirit to seek knowledge about technology for a better life. But, as a former activist of Al Irshad, the charges of my understanding of Islam was still affecting all aspects of my life at this time. Passion to learn Islam as my religion that I had been being embraced could not leaving as well. But, there was one important difference ... inputs about my religion that I received and concerned was not monolithic, or one-sided only. Why? ... because I did not find even a single member of Al Irshad on my surrounding in Yogyakarta. So, I became friends and socialized with moslem's propaganda campus activist.
In addition to studying Islam from discussions and the Islamic books that I had bought with my allowance aside part, I also learned from the secular's books. The term for the books that are not or less inspired by Quran and Hadith. At the time, the term of “secular” was very popular together with the term of “ghazwul fikr”, on the meaning of war of ideas among students campus activists propaganda. Among the books that seized my attention were the books of Stephen Covey on personal development and the books of Daniel Goleman on Emotional Intelligence, which I still have today. On my last years in Yogyakarta I also interested in the spiritual thinking of Danah Zohar and Ian Marshall, her husband.
Because my manner which was very open minded to read , I eventually read also the writings of Nurcholish Madjid, Amien Rais, Said Agil Siradj and Abdurrahman Wahid, one of the former president. Their articles on the newpapers and magazine I had read and thought about.
The most interesting thing was, sometimes I had found a common thread between their thinking with secular thought's books I had been read. So, I had a thought that which were considered secular by the students activist propaganda are not necessarily un-Islamic as well. For example, about democracy, women's rights and human rights. I was also interested and appreciate the idea of civil society from Agil Siradj. Perhaps the Medina Charter was similar to Pancasila for us here in Indonesia.
Western books that I had read clearly affected my attitudes and statements when discussing with students propaganda activists . I did sometimes think that I am up to it is not a real Muslim. But a humanist indeed who worship on God in the way of Muslims. That's terrible, .... until I then knew the truth …
The truth comes on the way of Yusril Ihza Mahendra, a lecturer from Universitas Indonesia, Jakarta. I happened to know in advance that he would present his doctoral dissertation at the Budi Mulia boarding school on the occasion of Pesantren Itikaf Ramadan XIII. Incidentally, I also knew that this Yusril during his studies at the University of Indonesia was closed to, and often discussed and learned from Mohammad Natsir a former leader of Masjumi Party. And I really know that my grandfather, when he was a youth becoming a member of Jong Islamieten Bond, Muslim youth organization at the pre-independence era which their discussions had been nurtured by Haji Agus Salim.
Incidentally, I also knew that my grandfather, Mohammad, was a member of the Masjumi Party before it had been disbanded by the government of President Sukarno. And this, .. the very interesting thing was I came upon a card member of Jong Islamieten Bond on behalf of Grandfather Mohammad which have the year 1932 had written to it while being swept the floor of my grandparents house in Kediri, East Java. "Where did you find it?", asked my grandmother on surprise when I gave her that simple and dirty card to her. The color of that membership card was so brownish which should be red and white colors when it was new.
So it was fit already ... Obviously, I was very curious about the contents of Yusril Ihza Mahendra's doctoral dissertation. Tomorrow, I will tell the discourse that made me really really furious on the students propaganda activists. The discourse let me knew me that I am as Islam as they. The differences are about the way we interpreted the teaching of Islam. How could they make me feel just much more like a humanist and not been a Muslims?
(written on 2010)
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